I never told anyone

Goodbye

6/3/2020

Someone that I can trust on leave me. Someone that I thought will wait for me. I don’t have the guts to tell you to wait for me anymore. This feeling really hits me. You found your happiness. I can’t hate you for doing all that. But either I cannot be happy for your decision. Maybe you actually already leave me long ago. Its just me who thinking you gonna be here for me forever.


I thought you gonna wait for me. Im still hoping you would wait for me. But the fact is its just too late. Too late for everything.

Blessed.

How I love Ramadhan feelings.

Calm yet full of joy.

Its already halfway to end.

Ya Allah let us meet again next year.

I miss this blog as I miss you.

Been three years I didn't post.
Been that much I'm still missing you.
Nothing change.
I'm doing fine.
Just missing you.
I love you in my prayers.

Jauh di sudut hati.

Sayang
Ku bawa jauh rinduku
Kerna aku telah tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Sayang
Sesunguhnya bukan mudah
Menjalani hidup ini
Tanpa kau di sisi

Jauh di sudut hati
Aku masih bermimpi
Mimpi yang indah
Esok kau kembali

Jauh di sudut hati
Ada waktu-waktunya
Aku berdoa
Kau pulang semula

Sayang
Biar ku mengingatimu
Biar ku gantung harapan
Hingga sampai waktu
Nafas terakhirku

I miss

I miss you
When the going gets tough
Thats when I miss you the most
When telling people whats happening is not an options
Thats when I need you to be near
The truth I cant denied, Allah takes the good and He love early.
But I love you too
Just not as much as He does
Because I know you're not mine
You belong to Him
We all belong to Him
Our time is too short
And I miss a "mole joke" person
And that will never be replaced by anyone.


Al-fatihah Muhammad Arif

Jika itu takdir.

Tuhan, terserah pada-Mu
Aku ikut mahu-Mu tuhan.

Redha.

Everyone have their own desire. So do I. But if He said its not for you then its is not. No matter how hard you protect it and desperately want it to be real.

Terima kasih Ya Rabb.

13 April 2014 bersamaan 12 Jamadil Akhir 1435 Hijrah;

Lama untuk aku istiqomah. Maafkan ku Ya Allah lambat sedar apa yang Kau beri untukku. Semoga aku terus istiqomah Insyaallah.

Thankyou.

Alhamdulillah amin.

Family that always stay right next.

You who never give up with me.

Hati, iman.

Pesan Imam Ibnu Asakir yang dinaqalkan oleh

Imam Nawawi Rahimahumallah :

"Ketahuilah daging ulama itu beracun. Allah

akan menyingkap aib dan keburukan orang yang

mengaibkan ulama. Barangsiapa yang melepaskan

ucapannya terhadap para ulama dengan mencelanya,

maka Allah akan timpakan sebelum kematiannya

dengan mati hatinya."

p/s: Nak dekat PRU nih semua rancak berdebat pasal politik.  Jangan pernah kamu menegenepikanNya dalam apa jua sekali pun urusanmu kerana dunia ini jua milikNya.
Politik sampai ketepikan agama, bukan kekal dunia nih pun. #notetoself

Quote.

You go to lose to know how to win.

Kata-kata.

Selagi kamu mampu bertahan hanya

dengan berdiam diri maka diamlah.

Dengan berdiam diri itu sudah mampu

membuktikan kamu kuat.

Congratulations to me!

Alhamdulillah now Im a diploma in programming holder! My gpa didnt change with my last sem but never mind cause my cgpa is 3.25. That deans I really want, I didnt make it. Still Im happy with it. Thinking of people expectation if I got a really high pointer. So its better this way kan? I am so happy and blessed!

Family sangat chill. Theyre like "okay we know you'll doing okay". Herhh Im dying there you remember? Abah dah macam relax bila bagitau yang result keluar. Dulu dia yang paling beriya. Mama pun senyum je. Je? Just je? Angah is the most annoying person that I know. Im happily tell him that my project didnt get bar and his expression like 'so??' Along, farah, adik, kakcik everybody act like nothing special happen. Ehh sedih!

Fai is the one that helping me checking the result and kena tipu hidup2! Dia pergi tanya D tuh ape? And I was like.... Ape yang D? Betul ke D? Serious? Ape yang kena repeat? Sumpah dia macam tak tipu. Then dia cakap next year kau pergilah repeat kalau rajin. !@#$%^&* Jan dah nangis dia bole cakap cepatlah nangis lagi. Lagi sekali dia kena maki hamun.

I only got B for my final project. Lots saying supervisor kiteorang kedekut markah. Hmm sakit jugak hati kite bila ramai dapat A. Tapi takpelah malas nak kesah dah. Because its over and jan dah boleh grad hoyeah!

Bila dieorang dok bising2 bagitau result keluar tuh jan sedang tidur. Lepas bincang2 semua bersyukur. Semua lega. Harap-harap semua boleh datang convo nanti. I really hope for us to have one last memory in ptss.

Emm tak sangka jan dah habis. Biarlah orang cakap 22 tahun baru diploma. Even belum dengar lagi orang cakap macamtuh depan2 hahaha. Tapi takpe sebab semua ade hikmah. Kalau jan masuk study awal2, jan takkan jumpa orang-orang yang jan kenal sekarang. And the most important thing is I can never be this Nik Nur Fauzan binti Mat Husin! Everything happen for a reason. And what happens on me I already get the point that Allah shows. Once again Alhamdulillah ;)

PTSS.

Alhamdulillah semua paper dah habis. Semua? 2 je pun. Kurang paper tapi sem paling stress. Lagi stress berbanding sem3 yang 7 paper tu. Khamis hari tu buat bbq dengan classmates kat rumah PA. Seronok! Bila tengok gambar-gambar bbq tu kelakar je. Masing-masing kecoh. Take turn shift membakar, seluar sha basah, surprise cake sempena birthday PA. Chef air dengan ady, berebut belon, buaian, karaoke lari tune, and jan dah bermaafan dengan faez. Faez yang mintak maaf okay bukan jan hahaha. Tapi sama-sama lah kan.

Lepas last paper semua berkumpul sebab nak ambik saham koperasi. Bab duit memang laju. Then berpeluk cium lah masing-masing. Time cakap babai kat alyn, fara, niza petang tuh yang paling sedih. Kelakar bila teringat yang mula-mula semua bajet cool. Sekali semua meleleh. Bila nak tutup pintu bilik dengan madel, terus semua kenangan terimbas. Ya Allah sumpah sedih. Ehh macam drama hahaha tapi itulah yang jadi. Korang take care ye. Nanti convo Insyaallah kita jumpa lagi.

1434H

Maal Hijrah nih, jan baca doa awal dan akhir tahun dengan niza. Sayunya hati. Jan berazam. Semoga doa jan termakbul, Amin. Jan ingatkan diri sendiri yang doa untuk Palestin, sentiasalah ada dalam setiap fardhu. And esok dah start paper. Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah semua. Goodluck to all of us!

:)

I've write a letter to my future husband.
My future imam.  :)
And I will keep writing till I met him.
But I only will gave all those to him after our ijab dan qabul.
Oh yes even I didnt know who exactly he is.
But Allah knows everything.

Ani

How I wish for us to always stay.

Today is your birthday.

I miss you.

We miss you!

When you come to your senses,

We're here.

Believe me, we will.

And youre still in my doa.

Insyaallah till my last breath.

Selamat hari jadi sahabat.

Semoga berbahagia dunia akhirat.

Apa yg baik dihajati, semoga Allah redhakan untukmu.

Nama kau tak pernah aku lupa.

Wisdom

Note to self :)

Moment.

Alhamdulillah. Finally! Those were two nervous day finally end. We're presenting our final project and its been a very chaos you can say for all the situation that happened. All feelings fully combined. It is very happy for us to present in the same lab for the whole classmates. To partner, thankyouu for everything. Alhamdulillah usaha kita berbaloi. Semua susah payah, bertekak pendapat, bersengkang mata, serabut, menangis, kabut, banner idea, solat hajat, berlari, semua semualah. And terima kasih kepada semua yang mendoakan kami. Our parents, family. Panel pun baik-baik je. Nasib tak kena hentam macam group lain. And once again, we're lucky for having them as our judges. Sujud syukur untuk semua yang dah berjalan lancar.

Tapi bila fikir balik, kami semua dah nak habis. Isnin nih last class for DIP 6. Kenangan je semua tu. Even after everything yang jadi dalam class ni sepanjang 3 tahun ni tapi at last kami semua tetap bersatu. And masing-masing tetap sayang class ni. Rasa nak nangis dah sekarang.